Me who like to be appreciated

i was hoping that I can have some ideas to write, but i always ended up not to write it. sometimes i felt like i never been appreciated by people, esp those who around me. of course, we do want some appreciations from the people that we close to. right? as for me, I always tried not to hurt anyone feeling even I am so hurt inside. I always happy when I see people around me happy. When we appreciate people, then people will appreciate us. What u give, u get back. Isn't true?

But sometimes I failed to realize it, I failed to care people's heart esp those whom I cared so much. Sometimes, when we have to much in our head, things burst without notice. I had so much things in my head and I cudn't hold them anymore. As a human being, when we happy then we laugh, when we are sad then we cry but me.. when I am sad, i have to laugh, when I am happy i have to laugh as well...am i going crazy for behaving like this. Is this hyprocite?

To be honest, I am loyal..loyal to everyone that I been with. I love to be friend and to be friended. My life is always surrounds by friends more than parents. I lived in a boarding school since I was 13, in that very younge age, I lived miles away from my parents. But I used to it, I am an eldest of 6 siblings so dare or not to dare, I have to live with it and I had lived with it.

As we grow up, we be friend to many people and we also lost many friends at time. Why this things happened to me? I not supposed to be like this. I am supposed to be friended by many friends. I have so many friends, countless best friends..but I felt like I never have friends.